A NDE "Black Hole"

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Story type: NDE
Location: Tennessee
Source: Form Submission

I'm not sure why, but I feel compelled to write this down. I was in college and I was a freshman. As some freshman in college do, I got involved with some drugs. At first, I was very afraid. I was the very first time in my life I had ever even seen drugs. This was marijuana.

I started "smoking" some of this stuff...I didn't like it because of it's effects on me...it made me nervous and it increased my heartrate to a speed that I didn't enjoy.

Anyways, one special night (I had no experience in this stuff...the others around me did.) a guy offered to give me a...I forgot what you call it...a "shotgun." Anyways, it's where someone takes the joint and turns it backwards in their mouth and then blows A LOT of smoke into your mouth. I forgot what they called it (I no longer do drugs...I find them replusive.) Anyways, this was my first time with this experience. I inhaled all of the smoke and I remember my roommate telling me that I was "going to die." I distincted remember him saying, "He's going to die." I didn't know what I was doing at the time.

Well, needless to say, it didn't seem like seconds before I thought I was going crazy. My heartrate increased and I knew I needed to leave. I needed to get out of that room. So, I went into an ajacent, empty room and layed down. When I layed down, I was completely conscious, but I closed my eyes and ALL I could do was smile SO big.

The occurance is vague...but it felt good...and I understood something at the time. I just remember that I smiled so big...bigger than I've ever smiled in my entire life...it was amazing. When I closed my eyes...what I remember...is some sort of...black hole. I knew that was where I was meant to be. I think there were colors, but I don't remember, it seems so long ago. But, I distinctly remember the black hole. I distinctly remember thinking to myself, "No one is going to force me into it...I'll choose it on my own." I remember thinking that...and then, I pulled my roommate close...I must have pulled him down to my mouth and I wispered to him, "I understand." That's all I said.

After that, some other weird things happened, not in my mind, but in the physical world. It took me a while to calm down, but I'll never forget the experience.