Crossover

From:  ()
Story type: Near Death Experience
Location: canada
Source: Form Submission
Date submitted: Sat Sep 15 23:17:59 2007

My mom died of cancer at a young age. The whole sureal experience of watching my young beautiful mom slowly deteriorate within ten months to finally witness her take her last breath in the hospital was unbearable. I didn't know how to cope with the insurmountable pain of losing my best friend and I became intensly angry and eventually extremely depressed. It was like I was trapped inside my own pain and the world outside was a harsh and cruel place. Friends and family I thought had cared about me seemed to vanish. Everything seemed so clear that I was alone.I was extremely depressed to the point of thoughts of suicide but not knowing how.

One night laying in bed I remember feeling like I was dead, that I could close my eyes and never wake up, like I was a shell and my soul had died and I think thats what actually happened. I was falling and falling down this black tunnel super fast and I remember feeling really scared at how deep I was going and how black it was. I was crying out God!!!!or something like that and then all of a sudden I found myself at the bottom of a dirt pit surrounded in blackness. I was terrified. I can remember feeling the dirt in my hands and started to cry and I thought I was in hell.

Then I glimpsed an opening to the far distant right of me like a door with sun light coming through and someone walking down some stone steps as if from Egypt or the desert outside. I instinctively knew it was my mom although I could not see her,it was like two souls greeting each other. I can't explain the depth of emotion grief and joy I was feeling and communicating to her without speaking.I was telling her how much I missed her and how alone I had been, all the while we were embraced and floating around in a circle. My mom had come to help me through a time of grief and despair just like she had so many times in life.

I sensed it was time to go back as I could feel myself being pulled up toward space. I asked if I would see her again, I understood her to say please try, don't give up, as in life and the next thing I know I'm being lifted super fast into the blackness of space through the universe and stars and I open my eyes and WOW! I'm in my bed looking up at my ceiling and tears are in my eyes and I am overcome by overwhelming joy, emotion and amazement at what I had experienced,like I had been somewhere sacred and divine.

As I was feeling all this with my eyes wide open two circular-like energy patterns were directly above me on my ceiling.The one on the left was dark and forboding and the one on the right was glimmering and golden and beautiful in its design.Both were alive in thier own energy.I could not keep my eyes off of them , I didn't want to blink and I guess eventually they disappeared.

To this day I remember and I think it was my mom telling me that we have a choice in life Joy or pain it's part of life whatever we experience hopefully we choose joy and all that goes with it , love. it's what saves our souls.