For Real or Not?
From: Story type: Channeling Location: Ontario Source: Form Submission Date submitted: Wed Oct 17 04:39:40 2007
I grew up in a very small town in Ontario and had one special friend I hung around with since diapers. We would run the world together she and I . Always together. Inseparable if you will.She was about to turn 17 and I 18. That year, we seemed to be separate more than together, as we were doing different things in life.
It was Jan. , cold and she was babysitting for my sister. My fiance and I as per her request went to visit with her that night. We sat and talked about life and then I complained that we were never together anymore. She commented that she hated being a third party with me and my future husband , so therefore hung out with others, but did claim she loved me most and that I would always be her bestest friend . I loved her equally. Like twin sisters attached at the hips we both were.
Three weeks later, at 8 a.m. in the morning I am sleeping at my future mother in laws. I heard the phone ring, but still groggy , fell in and out of sleep when Mrs. B comes in the room and says its the phone. Its for you! I thought oh , probably Charlene as we are suppose to go shopping for bridesmaid dresses that day . I arise from bed and there on the phone is my fiances friend Louise , who says to me, Oh my gawd , did you hear what happened last night? Groggy and still disoriented I say what ? No? what happened? She says Charlene died last night.
I felt my legs go numb, my hands began to break into a cold sweat and then my whole body went cold and numb. I dropped the phone, sat in the chair . She had died of a heartattack ( later found out it was family genes)...so the whole day I was in shock and around 2 pm I call my father and ask him to take me to the hospital. My arms went sore, numb, I could not breath, I was disoriented and couldn't understand however I did later that day. I had a nervous breakdown according to doctors. I was injected with whatever type of sedative and went to my parents place to rest. The next month was groggy and confusing .
My fiance and I married that next month. ( I was still on valium and depressed so Everyone thought the change would be good for me. We are divorced now,so I guess that wasnt the change required. However remarried, been married 24 yrs, this January and couldn't ask for better!! My current husband and I married on the anniversary of her passing. January 24th.
A couple of weeks after my marriage ( to my ex)I had a dream ( real or not ?). I dreamt Charlene was teaching me to dive in her pool, as she always did and to no avail. Then in the dream she was sitting ,"on the edge of my dresser" and chatting away with me , like we were still hanging out in the past. In the dream , I am awake but not awake. All of a sudden wide awake with tears,because It felt like she was truly there, and realize she is not, I am telling her don't go, don't go . Please don't leave me again. My husband sits up in bed and says are you ok. ?
I start rambling on about the dream and am shaking . As he gets out of bed, he looks at me and looks away and then looks at me again. His face pasty white and eyes in shock. He says to me. YOU have got to see this. See what, I say.
He pointed to the dresser which was covered with light dust. Maybe 3 days accumulation. But enough to notice that every inch of that dresser was covered in light dust, except a small section at the very end . It looked like a butt print. Like someone had actually sat there . My mouth gaped, and my eyes filled with tears. How could it be so real yet it wasn't? Real or not?
My Charlene has been gone for 33 yrs. now and I swear that girl is still around. I still , ...miss her so much!I think of her often and wish I could just pick up the phone and she would answer. I pray that this letter , will bring her back to me somehow in spirit -(even though I know she is around- I pray for stronger sign and that she will show me she is around, for if I ever needed a friend, I certainly need her now. She was the only best friend in the world that ever understood me. I love and miss her Dearly!