Near Death Experience

From: Daniel (bibibosh@hotmail.com)
Story type: Near Death Experience
Location: Australia Brisbane
Source: Form Submission
Date submitted: Fri Jul 11 01:38:24 2008

I was coming back from work today (18th June 2008), and i thought. Hey wouldnt it feel great too inhale some lighterfluid at the same time. I mean if you know what it does to you, its pretty safe, i mean music sounds different, you feel great. like a temporially high that lasts for only a few seconds. I'd been doing it for most of the journey, about 15 mins.

While I was driving, I'd problery inhaled for approx 1.5 min intotal. 4 deep breathes, while holding my breath (aka - hyperventilating) I was feeling great, like an electric pulse, pulsating thru my entire body. Music was sounding wierd, like echo'n.

Traffic was builing up ahead, problery 500 metres ahead. Thats when it started to hit me.

At this point, i have starved myself of air about about 1.5 - 2 minutes. I first notice visual affects.. purple red green symetrical cirles, in a pattern. The pulse kept getting heavier.

At this time, ther was no nitrogen in my lungs. Nitrogen is what makes your body automaticlly breathe without you knowing. (reflex) So in other words, my body forgot to breathe, i forgot to breathe.

It felt as if i couldnt hold the steering wheel, it felt like the steering wheel was getting bigger by the second, my hands felt numb, they felt very wierd, as if my hands wernt big enough to hold the wheel. However not that my hands felt small either, just wierd. Driving even felt like "a game" it didnt feel real, i wasnt real. All that existed to me was the white dotted lines on the left of the road and the safty island on the right.

This is when i freak out, I was still consoius and aware that i was driving. I couldn't feel myself, and my body was slowly losing focus. The road was all yellow, lanes where HUGE, it felt like i had tonnes of room. Driving felt so alienlike. I felt like an alien!

The car in front of me stopped, so i did aswell. (i dont know how i managed this, as i dont remember stopping) i was waiting, sitting in car for traffic to move. THEN I started to loose focus, i lost all focus everything when a tinge of yellow, still feeling the "electrical" pulse going to my entire body, it got stronger. I started to get nervous.

WHERE THE FUK AM I! WHATS HAPPENING!

Then i remembered. (this is probabley when i passed out)

HOLY FUK.. am i still driving?? I started to think.. could i be dead? Is this what death feels like? I was searching for my hands, looking around the car intensely, but i wasn't seeing anything. Still everythink felt as if it were still yellow, even the pulse felt yellow. (i know that sounds weird)

This is all i remember//felt in that trance, in order where am i? what the fuk? Holy shit! Could i be dead?

...pause... Holy fuk! I'm dead. Did i actully do it I actully did it I'm fuking dead! (i felt my head fall in my hands, in disbelief) I was asking myself, how did i do it? was it when i crashed, while high! But i didnt crash, right? I dont remember!

...pause... This is when I accepted my death.

So thats it? I started woundering if death will always be like this feeling. So, after i came to understand i was dead.

I tried laying back, it was uncomfortable but comfortable at the same time Well lets make the most of it..... Trying all sorts of positions (this is while i was in car), I was still looking around to see if i could see anything even laying back felt like death, i think my eyes where closed.

Looking around was even difficult, then i started to come out of it. My body started to breathe agian

I looked in rightside mirror, and i saw a set of headlights. At this moment I invisioned wut my death would be like for enternity. It felt so real, unreal. Words cant describe what it felt like.

Couple seconds later. (i would assume) felt like minutes.. Someone behind was beeping there horn at me. This is where it got scary! I started to come out off it..

The facted i didnt know what was happeneing. Vision slowly started to come back, I saw car behind me, thru the side mirrors No one was in front of me, so i tried to drive, clutche and eccelerator... Yet i was going no where, i was still partilly under, i tried my gears agian. Still it was hard to concentrate, .. I couldnt get the car to move! at this point in time, i thought i had a minor crash.

I was looking to unstrap my seat belt, i found it hard to find button, all my feelings where lost. But after sometime and few attempts I got it I was so amazed that i could get out of the car, Cuse I thought that this was all there was to death, getting out of the car was pure extastcy This made me realise, i might not be dead, afterall.

Puslating had stopped! Vision was studdenly regaining fast. I could feel my limbs agian. So i got out of car and noone was in front of me, so i walked around to back of car (i probably look absoluly smashed, fuking GONE!!) There was a car behing me, I look at the people in the car; two people inside. They were looking at me. I checked to see if i rolled back, and hit them. I didn't, Feww.. What a relief. Can you imagine what they would have thought, I mean, it was only a harmless beep, however i dont know how long i was out for..seconds?? minutes??

So i got back in car, and tried again, this time i turned the key, (the car must of stalled, dont know how?) It started.. i so i continued driving, the high was almost gone. At this time, i kinda knew i was alive, alive!!.. It was such a relief to get out of that experiance.

How could i live the rest of entirity in that state of feeling. I mean it wasnt painful, it wasn't unpleasent. Just boring. The pulsating hurt at first, cuse i was freaking out, thought i died. But then it got weaker and weaker.

I think i would of crashed forsure if it had of kicked in while i was driving, started a few seconds earlier! This happened near home, I was doing pretty much all along kingford smith road, and pretty much most of the way home, its just that last hit, Fuked me up.

You probably asking, why did i do this? I wasn't ment to passout! Thats my only answer..