Overdose

From: Katrina (dark_barbie_crazy4h_ny7318@yahoo.com)
Story type: Near Death Experience
Location: my boyfriends parents
Source: Form Submission
Date submitted: Fri Sep  4 15:08:42 2009

Heroin is the devils plaything. I had been playing with the devil for 2 1/2 years(I'm 21 years old now); despite the fact that i do believe in god and have been saved, i was simply addicted, and still am an addict.

It was late in the evening and my boyfriend and his best friend (both addicts as well), and I all schemed up to cop some heroin and hang out for a bit. We got back home and all shot up...2 minutes later I fell out. I was having the best dream ever.

I was in a field that I had played in as a child, but instead of just a plain green field, the area was covered in bright red flowers, the smell was alarmingly wonderful. i kept looking around to see the faces of the people talking to me, but there was no one. The voices were sweet and calming. I felt so at peace and didn't want to leave. In the "Dream" My grandfather's (Who had passed away 1 1/2 years prior from cancer) voice was becoming louder and was "shoving" me with his voice and i unwillingly listened and closed my eyes and A flash of blue came over me and suddenly my eyes were open in reality.

I looked forward and my boyfriends best friend was holding me screaming i had died, my heart had stopped, no pulse and i wasn't breathing for about 2 minutes. My boyfriend came rushing in with a chair and i sat down in it, more like pulled up off the mattress on the floor and forced into it. I was so out of breath like I hadn't breathed in 100 years. I felt so angry instantly that I was no longer in the dream with the overwhelming peace that I was always searching for through drugs.

I'm still angry and an addict, i struggle with sobriety everydday, but that experience has stayed with me and when I get the urge to do drugs i think of the fact that i died and god wants me here. I've prayed for a new life so many times and now i feel like god answered a prayer of mine. I died and have been born again. I have been living a new life for 13 days now. I'm reborn. I just keep praying that this life can continue being different and drug free. Thank god i have a second chance.