Train Stops in Thought

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Story type: Channeling
Location: Front of Elementary School
Source: Form Submission
Date submitted: Tue Aug 10 15:44:39 2010

I would like to say that this is very new for me to be sharing this with other people, but I believe I will be able to confide this story with others who have experienced something similar to this. Savannah is my surname as I wish not to share my real name on the internet. I'm 16 now, but the time of the predicament happened when I was 15. I was walking with a friend I had known since 6th grade (we were 10th graders then) and I'm always very awkward with her and tend to laugh in nervousness or I just feel like I don't really know her, as she is very materialistic. Anyways, she joked about something I said, which I don't remember, and when we passed this elementary school while she was riding her bike she had said "nobody's just going to run in front of a train and kill themselves" and then instinctively, as if I was required to do so, I looked at the ground at the edge of the schools little 2 foot stone sign, then I saw an vision of this girl's face in front of a train.

I have no idea how we got to the subject of people being killed by things but I didn't like the fact the conversation got there if i remember correctly. I knew the girl went to my highschool, and i scoffed at the fact I had thought she would killl herself with a train. At least that was what I assumed I could predict this thought was about. This girl who came up in my mind was a very nice person, so I had doubts she would kill herself with how many people liked her. I also said to myself how dare I think such a thought about a nice person, as I thought maybe I could have been jealous about how nice she was, which I never consciously felt.

Then, one day, in 7th period, she didn't show up, and walked in front of a train, and I didn't know who had died, so I didn't worry about it till' someone told me it was her. Then I started to freak out, because she was by far the most nicest person I had met at the school, and I feel guilty to this day I hadn't done something. I feel really bad, and I want to use this ability for good, but I don't know how. Everybody has forgotten the situation, but I can't, I'm still reminded by it, so much that I don't want to take chorus class ever, especially with this particular teacher. I tried to see if I could see her in my chorus class through my abilities, but I couldn't tell if it was my imagination or if she was trying to comfort me. I hope I didn't anger her or anybody for writing this, but, this is the second time I've predicted deaths, and this actually shook me up for weeks.

I told my mother about this, and she comforted me, but was speehless in a way. I have acute dreams, and can remember dreams from when I was 5 years old. I also had a dream the day before about my dog bashing her head in rock then jumping of a cliff into water, and swimming away. The next day she was frightened by a navajo performance using guns, and ran into the tucson desert. She was killed by big dogs, and my aunt found her dead, and I cried. I never experienced death like that before. Then, maybe a few days later, I felt like I could feel her laying in my lap, as I had a dream about her after she died that she was still frolicking at my grandma's living room. I miss her, and I miss the girl who was very nice.