Angels and Babies

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Story type: Angel
Location: Australia
Source: Form Submission
Date submitted: Sun Jul 24 16:06:31 2011

Angels

I have been meditating for many years on and off. I find it a great way to centre my spirit especially when life is challenging.

 My partner and I were going through a very difficult period in our relationship and I had started to meditate nightly for periods of an hour or so. One night I was meditating and as I was at home on my own I lost track of time and got into a very deep state of meditation.

My whole body was buzzing, not unusual for me but this was a vibration that was so intense I actually felt like I was levitating and that I no longer had the normal human form. I just felt like a ball of energy and light. It felt wonderful but got scary at the same time when I started to hear a hum that vibrated through me and outwards. I all of a sudden didn't feel like I was alone any more. It was clear that I had reached a state that was very unfamiliar and I was all of a sudden scared at what would happen next.

I then did something unusual and instead of coming out of my meditation slowly as i normally do i just opened my eyes and got up from where I was sitting. My body was electrified ! I was still buzzzing from head to foot and the worst was my teeth, they were literally vibrating, it wouldn't stop. I went downstairs tried to watch some tv but couldn't concentrate, the buzzing wouldn't stop, finally after a couple of hours I had a shower  and went to bed. I had to start visualizing to get my mind away from the buzzing and somehow I fell asleep. ..... well not really.

Side note: All my life I have had many out of body experience (OBEs) and they all start with this state of vibration but not the extreme buzzing that I was experiencing. This is why I was doing the visualizing, because for me, it doesn't lead to OBEs.

So next thing I know I'm somewhere else, like I said I'm used to OBEs but though this felt absolutely real and in no way a dream it didn't feel like what is a usual OBE for me.

So here I am somewhere where there is no form, everything is white, peaceful , but I'm hiding in something which feels like a big box tipped on it's side, and all around me are other such boxes and I'm not about to go anywhere. I'm not reallybscared but I'm feeling safe in my box, comfortable. (take note of the imagery). 

Then here come this pair if friendly hands from above the box, I can't se who they are attached to, and a voice in my head be conning to me  "Come, come out. You don't need to stay in there, there is so much out here if you would just come out to meet it. Come, come out, come out and we'll show you what is awaiting you". I goot the feeling that I was hiding from my life and that if I just went out that anything I wanted was waiting for me if I just went to it, if I had the courage to claim it.

So I put out my hands and as the other pair took hold of me, in an instant I was flying.   I should say 'we were flying' because there was an angel holding me in front of him and there was a second one flying beside us. 

I remember thinking 'well this definitely can't be a dream because this is not what I would imagine angels to look like'. They were human in form (apart from their majestic wings) slim, young men, pale skin & blonde! Angels in my imagination would be muscular & dark, definitely not from my mind, I absolutely  had nothing to do with conjouring this up!

Any way we are flying and I'm in bliss (not new to flying either, I do plenty of that while out of body too but never before had I been 'flown' in such eternal peace. Then it starts raining babies! All around us are these beautiful babies floating down past us. Is so somehow know they are mine  but I instinctively  know I can't 'catch' any of them.

Then the angel holding me reaches out and hands one to me. As I take it, in my mind I hear him saying, ' this one you can keep'. I hold the baby to me and instantaniously I'm in bed again & my body  is still buzzing as are my teeth

It was like nothing I had ever experienced, it was not a dream. To this day almost 10 years later I remember every vivid detail & every vivid feeling like it happened a second ago.

At the time I was 35 years old and I had never ever wanted to have kids nor did the experience leave me with any desire to have any. It was just something that had never appeared on my wish list for my life. I'm very untraditional, I'm not married though my partner (male) and I have been together for 20 years now.

Three years later at 38 we did decide to try to have a child because my partner wanted to have kids and I didn't think it was fair to deprive him of the experience, I figure that if I wasn't the best of mothers then at least he would be an amazing dad.

Well we tried for 4 years and I had 8 miscarriages until finally I became pregnant with my daughter. Even her pregnancy should not have been successful, I was 42, my hormones were not multiplying as they should (in fact they were halving instead if doubling in quantity)  I was bleeding so heavily that by 12 weeks I was told that I had miscarried again. 

5 days later I was at the doctor's having a scan to see if they would need to do a D&C when there on the screen was my little angel, her heartbeat strong and steady. My little miracle that I was told about all those years ago. The baby that I didn't even know I wanted.

Motherhood has been the greatest blessing of my life a calling that I never knew I wanted.

Everyday I look into here eyes and I see God and the miracles he gives us.