Complete Bliss

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Story type: Near Death Experience
Location: Burnaby Hospital
Source: Form Submission
Date submitted: Sun Aug 14 01:10:58 2011

April 9th 2009

I had swallowed about 60-80 fast relieve Tylenol that night in my last attempt to end my life. I was seventeen and about to be shoved back onto the streets because my manager had illegally terminated my employment and sabotaged my means of paying rent.

I had puked before the police showed up to judge me. "Why, what's so horrible about your life that you want to end it?" Ugh, if only they had enough heart to understand. I grabbed a book, my phone, and CareCard. Off to the hospital I go.

After I drank a charcoal smoothie I found myself lying in a hospital bed as a male nurse undressed me. I felt as if I was being molested. I didn't fight, I had been fighting for seventeen years. He struggled to connect the I.V with my vein.

I hate needles.

He pulled the I.V out and found a new spot to try.

I left. I didn't want to be there.

I experienced something I will never experience in this physical life. Complete and utter bliss. Happiness, love, peace. The world was lifted off my shoulders. I was somewhere that I can not described. I was enveloped in unexplainable serenity. I was floating, I was flying, I was free from a shell that kept me from such a wonderful place.

I was told by my friend that I looked as if I was having a seizure; "the funky chicken."

I felt it to be cruel punishment to come back. I am thankful I lived. I have had an amazing recovery mentally and love life more than ever.

I still wonder how I could feel so free.