Simply Touched

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Story type: Angel
Location: England
Source: Form Submission
Date submitted: Tue Jan 11 17:50:40 2011

Hi. I'm not even sure if this is an angel story or not, but I truly think it is.

About seven months ago, I found God. I began to pray during an extremely hard year of my family's life. Some days we could just cry with the stress we caused each other. So I prayed. I pleaded God to stay with us and heal our pain. My sister almost killed herself, and as she lay in her hospital bed, I numbly sat on my bed just thinking. Thinking of all of the problems and heartache the year had given us. And I cried. I just cried and prayed "God PLEASE. Let her live with new found wisdom and stay close to her. Stay close to me and comfort me through this time. Help my sister PLEASE." And it worked. My sister recovered well and personal problems were sorted out, so she was no longer suicidal.

Now I had strong faith in God...but school held problems for this faith. As soon as people discovered I believed in God, they attacked me and constantly asked questions about him and about the contradictions of the bible. I grew weary and stopped praying as much, forgetting what God had done.

Months passed and at christmas I got a crucifix from my aunty and I realized for the first time just how much I had let my faith in God slip. I barely prayed anymore and I was having doubts, so I awkwardly began to pray again.

"Lord, I know I haven't been close lately, and I'm sorry. Truly. Um, I was wondering if you could help me be close to you. Keep my faith in you strong and banish the bad thoughts and doubts from my mind. Please."

Well, it seemed to work. I had a strange feeling overcome me. There was like, a powerful feeling of love in my chest and heart that made me almost stop breathing as I tried to hold onto it.

A while later, I prayed that I would do my best to be a good christian and keep my faith, but of course I slacked and kept messing up, so I kept asking for forgiveness, and started getting scared of God's anger. What if he was furious at me for not trying hard enough?

He seemed to know and as I prayed for strong faith, and came across something. A TV program called 'Touched by an Angel' and every episode I watched warmed my heart and gave me that same powerful feeling of love in my heart.

The very very last episode, for example, shows the angel meeting God, and his message was clear. Love was the way. It gave me a huge sense of devotion and I recorded the series. Now, if I feel like my faith is fading, I watch it and it gives me that feeling again.

Wow.
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