Touched by an Angel or Something

Name:            Ivan
Email:           maniaac_man69@yahoo.com
Location:        my home
Anonymous:       
Type:            Angel
Date:            Saturday, January 15, 2000
Time:            09:19 PM

4 years ago my wife had taken her own life. I was crushed I had 3 boys to raise, and between us we seemed to take care of things and go on with are lives. I myself though was not handling things well. My drinking went way up if I was not at work or doing something for the boys I was drunk. My boys went on a vacation that summer to visit family, I stayed home. I was sitting on the front room floor crying, wondering why, and what happened to my world. I was hurting inside and out, a feeling of total uselessness.

I did not know what to do, then I ask God. I said please God please just give my 10 more years. Let me raise these boys then you can take me. Use me in what ever way you want to, just let me raise these boy. I was sitting with my back against the front of the couch, tears and snot running down my face feeling lower than I've ever had before.

Then thing's got weird this wind picked up but only seemed to hit me in the mouth, and up my nose. It was strange there was such a force it rocked my head back and the wind kept coming, and coming. I couldn't in no way fight it, it was filling my body and seemed to last 10 or 15 seconds. Then it was gone, but the way I felt after was even stranger yet. I felt well pure and like a huge load had been taken from my heart. Had I been touched by an angle? Or had the Lord himself touched me with a breath of life? 

To this day I wonder I know something was there I felt it. I know how I felt after words, I think the lord has plans. ( that works for me )