Saved by God

From: janina (cdlla1215@aol.com)
Story type: Angel
Location: florida
Source: Form Submission

i remember my dream as if it had happened yesterday. it was summer of 1994 when i was 14. my mother and i were living in a shelter b/c my father had thrown us out of the house. While livng in the shelther i became very suicidal. my mother had stopped paying attention to me, my father was blaming me for all the family problems and my brother ran away and never bothered looking for us. my family said i was lying when i would tell them how my father treated me. i was raised pentecostal and was always taught that if you killed yourself you would go straight to hell.

i finally came to a point in my life where i did not care if i spent an eternity in hell. i went to my room one night, which i shared with my mom in the shelter, and had decided that was going to be the last night of my life. i couldn't handle it anymore, i felt that i had suffered too much in my young life and could not deal with my level of depression. before i went to bed that night i stayed up a bit and prayed. i told God that i was sorry but that i could not put up with the pain anymore and that anything, even hell, would be better than what i was going through.

i finally went to sleep and this dream has been with me ever since then. in my dream i was sitting on a tree stump in front of a church, i finally decided to go inside of the church. inside my mother was preaching and i wanted to go sit up front but the deacons would not let me go up there, they said there was no room for me so i had to sit in the back. i was so upset i went back outside. i sat on the tree stump again and started to cry. i was just crying and crying and said i can't take it anymore, all of a sudden a bright light came before me and i looked up and saw a hand extended towards me. i saw a bright light and saw a very tall man w/ a white robe on wiha rope around his waist standing there. his feet were not touching the ground on one side there was an angel dressed in blue and on the other side and angel dressed in pink . both had gold hair. the man whose hand was extended to me did not have a visible face it was covered with a very bright light. the man held out his hand and said come to me my child.

i stood up and took the man's hand and just started crying as he held me. i remember him patting my hair and telling me that he loved me all i could say was please take me with you please take me with you. the man said i want you to know i love you and i care about you, whenevr you feel lonely just call upon my name and i will be there for you, whenever you think no one loves you i do, whenever you think no one cares about you i do, all i could say was please take me with you, and he said it is not your time i love you and i care about you whenever you think there is no one there i am always there for you, i just put my head in his chest and kept crying, when he hugged me it was like no feeling i had ever felt. it touched me all the way inside, alomst like he was hugging my soul.

when i woke up my pillow was wet from crying all night. all it took was that dream to keep me going and here i am still today. i know God sent his angel and son to be with me in that dream b/c it wasn't my time and b/c he loved me. well thanks for reading, if you have any question or comments email me at cdlla1215@aol.com