Multiple NDE's

Name:            Linda
Email:           puffmuffin@hotmail.com
Location:        Home
Type:            NDE
Date:            Tuesday, October 10, 2000
Time:            12:52 AM

My experiences started at about 12 or 13 years of age, and continued until I was in my mid 20's. I used to stop breathing shortly after settling in bed. At the time, I didn't know I had quite a problem with asthma. My mother had died about a year before, and I was in a sense, grieving. These experiences have changed my life, especially my outlook on life, and on love for all others.

My first experience, I was laying in bed trying to go to sleep, but still awake. Suddenly I felt a great pressure on my entire chest area. It felt like a huge hand grabbing me inside my chest and stilling my breathing. I suddenly felt total paralysis of my body, and grew scared as I tried with all my will to shout for my sister or father, and even move to bang on the wall next to me. No voice, movement or feeling. Suddenly I felt myself raising into the air, the ceiling getting closer, and I peered down for a moment, looking at my body laying there helplessly in bed. I figured this is what happens when a person dies. I wanted so much to get back into my body, I wasn't ready to die.

I arose very fast through the dark sky, and through a darkened tunnel. In the tunnel, I saw the spirits of others, especially taking notice of one lady. I didn't know them. At first I was going up fast, but slowed down as I reached a bright almost blinding light, allowing me to see these spirits passing me by, that at first looked like passing mini-lights. I saw each and every one of their faces. I came to a pathway which lead to a huge structure in the distance. I was now going at a slow pace, while watching these people or spirits pass by me and head into the structure through a huge gate. I came close to this humongous beautiful structure, and noticed something off to my right side. To this day I don't remember for sure, but think it may have been a small burning bush.

My attention turned back to the structure, with walls that were very high and very long. Everywhere was very well lit up, the light emanating from inside the structure, going out as far as where the tunnel ended. There was no sun, moon or stars. It was so bright, no shadows were cast anywhere. The whole structure balanced in mid-air, nothing to hold it up. As I came close, I saw the base of the wall had numerous beautiful gemstones, seemingly of every kind. I especially remember seeing the diamonds, green ones, pink and blue ones (my favorite colors). I got the immediate feeling that nothing could go under it or over it, and the walls were solid.

I stopped at one of 3 gates that I'd seen earlier, that were positioned far apart, on this one side. The gates were huge! As high as it was wide, and made of one solid, pure, whitest pearl like I've never seen here on Earth. It was so bright! At the doorway, which was always open, I saw inside, but never went right in. I knew Jesus was inside, and going in, I could never return to my bodily existence on Earth. The floor, was clear and shiny like glass, but I could not see through it. I was admiring all of it's beauty, when someone approached me from inside, at the gate. To this day I believe it had to have been the Guardian Angel of that gate. I knew him well, and recognized him, but not from my lifetime on Earth, but from before that. It was then I realized that this was where we all came from before our Earthly life. Our souls or spirits all started from here, God's creations.

Looking at the Angel, I wanted to just bawl my eyes out, cause I wasn't ready to die. I could only think of my father and sister I'd left behind. But no sound or tears would come. But the Angel understood me, as he stood in the doorway of the gate. As I was turning around to come back, I felt a peace envelope me. I thought of taking one last look at Heaven before I returned, but it was too late. I returned back to my body faster than I'd gone up.

The next thing I remembered was choking and gasping for air, back in my body. At the time, I had no clue as to any explanation of what happened to me until many years later, hearing about NDE's. I never told anyone until many years later for fear of not being believed, or others thinking I was crazy. Many years later, I read the entire Bible, and figured out that where I'd been, was to New Jerusalem, or Heaven. It will be our new home when we leave our bodily existence. There is no such thing as death, except for those who refuse to believe in Him. What I saw is written in Revelations, chapter 21, verse 18 to the end. Except the contents inside of it, where I did not go.

The following 15 years, I had so many, that I lost count. I didn't see Heaven again, but was in the deep dark never-ending Bottomless Pit, several times. According to the Bible, it is where Satan will be shut in for 1,000 years. It is very scary. It seemed maybe 10-12 feet in diameter, cylindrical, without a bottom. I just kept falling downwards towards the center of the Earth. It was cold, and could feel dampness, and very dark. The only light, emanated from myself.

I knew this place was evil, and I didn't belong there. Stones in the Earth held it together, like an ancient water well. Once, the last time, I felt 2 presences, of someone trying to show me something. One I was afraid of, and the other I wasn't. But I was too scared to stay. When I came back to my body, I still felt the bad presence there with me. I caught a glimpse of something so ugly, right in front of my face, that I screamed! Those eyes...that face. I know it was evil, maybe satan himself. I just know I don't care to see him again! I don't understand the point of being shown this. Perhaps someday it might be clear to me. I was brought up Catholic. I always have been strong in Faith to God/Jesus.

Each NDE I encountered, started the same way. Usually wide awake, stop breathing, paralysis, fear, and floating out of my body and everywhere. Then finally returning. Each time, upon waking up in the morning, I was always exhausted, as if I ran a marathon or something. I welcome anyone wishing to contact me by e-mail.