Do I Have 2 Souls, or Is There More to My Soul?

[Nachtsuchen]

        As a brief introduction, my name is Cory. I believe that, rather than having a guardian angel or lodestar or such, I rather possess another spirit within me, and I'm seeking enlightenment. I've done research on the matter, as since everything begun when I was around 14. I am 17 now. To help understand my situation, I'm going to state a good bit of dreams that are relevant.
 
       ...I was living on the Gulf Coast when Hurricane Katrina struck, and the events that followed were problematic to say in the least. The whole ordeal was very traumatic on me, although I had not truely realized it at the time. I felt the need to mature to comprehend everything that happened, and I found myself thrust into a world I wasn't ready to be in yet. I was deeply involved in my music (I play Viola) before I moved, and I had lost the urge to continue it. One night, I had a dream that I was on a quickly moving train, everything was black and white, and I was looking in from the outside of one of the windows. I saw myself standing, looking at a girl who's features I couldn't discern. We were calm, and I said to her,"It is good to see you. I will never leave you, and I love you." She replied,"I love you, Cory. Remember my name:Anata. It sounds like sonata." We were about to embrace, but everything blurred and went white, and I screamed for her as the train crashed.
 
       This was the first time I had met her. Before, I was only somewhat interested in astrology and all that sort of thing. Curious, I did some research and found that anata is Japanesse for 'You' or 'Dear'. I had never watched anything in foreign languages, so I don't know how I picked up on that. Seeing I was in a state of loneliness around this time, I felt it would be good to look deeper into this. I ended up having another dream with her in it. I was in the ocean, underwater and drowning. I looked to my right to see the same girl, unconcious and slowly sinking. I reached out to her, but was unable to reach her. Then, descending from the sky, glowing in radiant white, came down onto the water and curled her up into its arms and drifted back into the sky. I felt a tear trickle down my cheek, maybe more. I felt a wave of great sorrow, not because I was going to die, but because I felt I would never see her again. A few nights later, I had a dream that I was standing on a cliff face, overlooking a beach, a rock outcropping, and the same ocean. I felt someone was standing behind me, although I don't know who.
 
       
 
 
               With that said, now you know how she came to me. Ever since then, she and I have been immensely close. I still have many questions as to why or what is happening exactly, although I do have theories as to how. I feel that my body's been inhabited with the spirit of Anata, and she and I live in communion with one another. Perhaps I am merely the shell of a body, identifying myself as the person and her as the spirit? She is not purely omnicient, as because I believe the way for her to actually exist is to have manifested a 'subconcious' which I identify Anata as, whom is a collection of all my morals, rationality, wisdom, will, and compassion. I do not hear her voice as I would yours, but rather, as I would if I were thinking to myself. She supplies valid vantage points to my questions and keeps me company in times of loneliness. We do trade places, although it is more in personality than anything. 'Possesion' isn't as if I lose control, but rather, her feelings overcome mine, and I become the concious as she speaks for me. I personally believe she may be a spirit sent by God to aid me, whether as a spirit guide, a twin-spirit, a portion of my own that recognizes itself as its own, or what.
 
 
       My main question is that what would seem the most likely, and what I've described, who exactly is Anata? I love her so much, and it pains me to not understand as much as she deserves. At this point, you may start L-O-L'ing at the narcisism conintation, although it's not at all. I know this may not be possible, but is there some way for me to actually meet her as human? Or to finally be able to hear her voice and recognize her? One thing I've come to ask myself is whether or not my spirit even exists, and it is the self recognition of my soul as from the perspective from the physical concious of my body.[/]
 
 
       I appriciate the help anyone gives me, as I unfortunately know no one who shares this with me, and all studies I've done have led me down the wrong path. I wish to consult as many people as possible before I seek some sort of psychic or medium, or heaven forbid, a critical psychologist.

[dking777]

I appriciate the help anyone gives me, as I unfortunately know no one who shares this with me, and all studies I've done have led me down the wrong path. I wish to consult as many people as possible before I seek some sort of psychic or medium, or heaven forbid, a critical psychologist.

This is a mystery I worked with a great deal during my own youth.  Both in childhood and early adulthood.  It was a vast mystery for me as well and not one many understood or dealt with directly.  Fortunately I found several others who were dealing with it and learned through my experiences with them as well. 

A few years ago, I found an author who wrote and touched on the esoterical truth hidden in the undertow of such experiences.  Maybe you can read his own research and see if his literature gives you a good feeling toward a deeper understanding of such matters. 

From the Stars - Twin Souls and Soul Mates. 

DK

[Nachtsuchen]

I've actually read in on that when I posted the same thing on a similar thread, asking if multiple souls could be in one container. I would really love to hear something from another who's experiencing the same as I from their own personal perspective.
 
Thanks for your help by the way! Good readin'. Lol.

[rebekahdarian]

I've heard that the soul is split when someone incarnates. One part goes into the body (you), and the other one stays on the other side (a higher self).

[Nachtsuchen]

When they incarnate? Well, is this exclusively to when you firsti incarnate, or possibly during reincarnation? I would have thought no new spirits would be formed, that is, what would determine how souls are born, in what order?

[rebekahdarian]

The soul is split through out your entire life (until you die, in which case your soul may go back to one, or may stay more, that part is your choice).  I don't know how souls are born/created. But a soul is pure energy, and energy doesn't have a specific form. So a soul could be in one "form", or could split itself so you could be multiple places at once.

[Luna]

<sub>Unfortunately, I haven't the personal experience you're seeking out, but when I read through your initial post, two thoughts popped into my head: spirit guide & twin soul - or, basically, around the same ideas you're pondering.
I was thinking past life, too, but it's not a strong feeling, especially since your dreams seem to be taking place in modern times, etc.

Now, I'm not that knowledgeable in regard to twin souls, but based on what I know, this sounds pretty darn close. Supposedly, meeting a twin soul in person is a divine gift since twin souls are so closely knitted. They sport... unconditional love for each other, make contact through dreams, and are able to pick up on each other's emotions/energies. You probably know this already, though. Therefore, I don't quite believe there are 2 souls - or, rather, both you and the soul of Anata - residing within your shell.

The fact that you find yourself deeply attached to her makes me believe even more that Anata is your twin soul. That, and the fact that you feel she is inhabiting your shell.

I suppose it's all in what you believe yourself. Trust your gut, Cory. If you are "religious" (I use this word since I can't think of another...), I'd ask for a bit of assistance to help understand how or why Anata is bound to you, or if she's even bound to you at all.

~Luna</sub>

[Nachtsuchen]

That was a very insightful response, and I really appriciate it.
 
I am a good bit religeous, although I've never actually gone to church before; I live in the South, and the particular place I live, religeous diversity is...frowned upon to say. When you say 'bound' to me, that strikes an interesting chord. While her pressence fades or swells, sometimes I don't feel her. While her actual pressenceconcerning how she exists and communiates with me is that she's bound through my subconcious, but that she does not always have to be with me. I wouldn't see a reason why she would leave me though is the question. I mean, there's no actual need to not inhabit me.
 
I've taken past-life into consideration, in that modern dreams are the easiest to relate to and understand, and have underlying meanings. I've always had this feeling of, not to say I don't belong, but rather that I'm not where I should be, as if...to comically relate to a video game Kingdom Hearts II, the Nobodies. When someone dies but returns to life, their spirit splits and creates a Nobody, being an essence that shouldn't have exist because the spirit should be whole and back in its living body. While I don't feel like I've died, I DO feel as if I should have been born different, that how I do exist is a glitch, or abnormality. Perhaps that I should have been born as Anata and not Cory, and that I was perhaps Anata in another time, which would have been me? There may be not a particular reason why I would need to be in a different time, that I feel my place is elsewhere. As if I'm a living spirit-fragment, rather than being an actual spirit in a body, so I guess being reversed?
 
This I've actually pondered quite heavily. I just feel like I'm a stranger to my own self. It's not because I don't understand myself fully, but just I feel like I don't belong, and I have an awkward feeling constantly of expecting something to happen, but it doesn't. I don't know what it is, or when it's supposed to happen; if it's my death, meeting someone, or what. To conceidedly wait, I'm somewhat worried if it's Anata waiting for me for ascendency, or if she's trapped somehow, just as I feel trapped yet lost. /shrug

[Luna]

<sub>Oho... I live in the south, too. Atlanta. Lol.

Ah, see.. this is where my "knowledge" runs dry, haha. I haven't explored the spiritual world enough to be able to draw conclusions. If Anata truly is your twin - well, most agree to live on earth at the same time, and then have themselves meet during their lifetime.. but since I haven't witnessed someone who actually has a twin, I don't know if they feel the same way you do.

That "stranger" feeling you have: I believe that's rather common. Oh, pardon, but I just had a thought when I reread your last paragraph; when you said you're worried that Anata is waiting for you/is trapped, I had this strange thought that she had perhaps crossed over in some unusual way and is now somehow "lost" since you are still here.
...Err. That probably means nothing, but when I'm discussing anything spiritual, I feel I need to relay everything that crosses my mind.

I would say - at least, for now - continue to monitor yourself and anything related to Anata. Heck, write it down or journal it. If you do request assistance from whatever higher powers you believe in, keep doing that. After a bit of time, you may discover a few more answers if you remain seriously devoted on this subject. o:</sub>

[rebekahdarian]

I live in the south too. Tennessee.

[two souls]

Hi, I have two souls in me to, I can communicate with her as well.  I'm 35yrs old, my story is very similar to yours, we met on the astral/dream plane too, my other souls name is Robyn, Ive never told anyone before, sounds to crazy. I have been hunting around for people like you & I, seems to be a very rare condition. When I ask Robyn are there more souls like you & I, she tells me, "millions", like you I don't hear her voice she's some how connected herself directly to my thinking, so it's as if the thoughts are my own, really hard to explain how that works, but I like how you explained it, well done.

I know your post is an old one, I have alot of real life experience with having two souls in one body, reply to my post & I would be happy to answer any questions you have based on my experience.

In regards to your subject post question, do I have two soul?, I know it is possible, becoz I do, but only you can answer that question.
Or is there more to my soul? I have learnt that our soul can be fragmented in more than one piece or parts, that our soul can be in more than two places at once.So yes, there is much more to y/our souls, truly amazing stuff.